coming into my own

you helped me find my way
there’s still so much to learn
so many dreams to earn
but even if i crash and burn ten times a day
i think i’m here to stay
i’m gonna find my way…

that’s a quote from “find my way,” from legally blonde, the musical (yes, im serious. it exists. and MTV will actually be airing it–in it’s entirity–on saturday, september 29th at 1pm eastern time!). i had my ipod on shuffle while i was skating around earlier (morning skating is really the best!) and that song came up. i think it’s the perfect song to describe how i feel right now. i’m really starting to come into my own here. (and as for the “you,” you know who you are…) i’m not the new kid anymore. i’m starting to open up to people and be more myself, and people STILL like me! haha. let me tell you, it feels amazing to be accepted with such open arms! ^^

i found a really sweet DJ program for my mac. it’s called “futuredecks lite.” it’s got everything i could ever want. im not looking for something totally crazy professional…. just simple stuff… crossfading, beat matching, simple looping, etc. its exactly what i was looking for. now that i found the perfect program, now i can start working on some sets. im sooooooo nervous/excited about this audition. i dont wanna screw up too bad!! lol! i need to set a time with flo for that. maybe thursday sometime after 3pm SLT? that work for you flo? if i set a time now then i have something set to work towards and i gotta be ready regardless. LOL.

so what do i need to dj? i got the DJing program yesterday… i need a broadcaster program as well (im looking at nicecast…. but its $40, anyone know of a mac one for cheaper? lol….. this kid’s poor!) (but ill buy it if i need to). and now im hearing something about needing a stream server? wtf is that? i dont know what it does. i might have to talk to tsu about that…. i know he sells them….. i just wish i knew what they were and what i need to do with them. LOL.

on relationships…

It really makes me stop and smile when I think about how close ive become to some of the people I met since I moved here. You know how sometimes you move to a new place and you just observe the scene, and you learn who all the cool popular people are and so? Its crazy to stop and think that I can call these people my friends. Robin, Flo, Shakes, Danny, Rai, Ron, Rick, Gray, Harold, Caleb, Dale, both Austins, Tobi (and LT…lol), Pais, Tigger, Pix, Dark,… and of course my big bro Dusan…you all have left such a wonderful impression on me and it makes me smile and feel all warm and fuzzy when i see all of you. I know I’m forgetting people but I just woke up and I hope you know I love you all as well. and feel free to yell at me if i forgot you. haha.

Anyway. My house is almost done. Yay! I have to confess something though. Its kind of lonely having such a big house all to myself. I have caught myself daydreaming a whole bunch recently about how nice it would be to have a special someone here to share things with. I’m not necessarily looking for a relationship at the moment but you have to think that it would be nice…

Anyway. I’ll shut up now. Sorry for rambling. Flo wants me to audition for him to DJ at his beach club. I gotta work on getting a set that i like so i can audition! I have to figure out what kind of music I want to play as well. I’m thinking high energy dance and pop, since those are my 2 favorite styles of music, and i think they blend together. I also need a name. Any suggestions on either? im thinking dj bobby o.c. or just dj offcourse. any suggestions would be helpful.

adventures in new york!

so yesterday i spent some time finishing up on my house (i finally have a roof! and now im just working on some furnishings), and i got a call from robin asking if i wanted to come on an adventure with him and a few others. apparently he found a replica of new york, circa 1850s (http://slurl.com/secondlife/Elegua/68/161/23), and they were going to go exploring. never to be the one to pass up an adventure, i of course accepted. i met robin on his front porch, and then suddenly like 20 more people showed up! we had like a whole gang of people! so we TP’ed over to the place and explored it. we were gonna drive over but we would have had to rent a limo to fit all of us! haha. it was really cool! they had a real life bull to ride, a house full of stuff for….um…. “ladies of the evening,” some weird bull furniture, and a full dance hall that was decked out to the finest square dance hoedown garb imaginable. we had quite a fun time hanging out there…. it was a nice change from vortex and aspen. i also got to dance with gray, whose a really good dancer! hehe. i told austin S that he should do his rock show there. LOL. i had to run off though so i didnt get to finish the exploration (it was past my bedtime), but i hope to go back sometime and check it out. i love those guys. it was so much fun going over in a big group! i hope we can do that again sometime.

ive got a busy weekend ahead of me, so i might not be out and about that much. dusan also promised me that we’ll have some brother time soon! ^^ im holding him to that. and if all goes well, i should have my house ready by next week. when its done, ill invite some people over to see it. and maybe even post some pictures of it here too for those who are too lazy to come over.

p.s. robin…. i so won our bet. ^^

chill weekend…

what a great weekend! i didnt really do much that you could actually consider productive, but i sure had a lot of fun just hanging out with people this weekend. i also built a new room on my house…. now i just gotta actually attach it to the rest of it! lol at the moment its kind of just floating out in space. haha. danny’s back from vacation too! yay! rai’s been hard at work on his land, and theres a really cool new place to hang out on it now. flo, pais, and i hung out there yesterday and chatted about food. it made me REALLY hungry. flo, youuuuu need to update your blog.

im officially no longer the new kid now. that makes me happy. some people even threw a small, informal one-month rezzday party for me. it made me feel all warm and fuzzy inside. my friends are really the best. i cant wait to finish my house so i can throw a small get together at my place. it wont be anything crazy big since its a private island and i think my bro would kill me if i suddenly invited half of kikai to it! haha. but a small way of saying thanks to my awesome friends. but then again, i also need to stop building for long enough to actually be able to clean and get ready for company! i just cant stop building! i suppose it could be much worse though… i shouldn’t complain about that.

i need to post some pictures from this past weekend. i havent posted pics in a while. ill do that later, i cant get to my camera right now (booo!).

ooc: is there an easy way to DL pics from your texture library in SL to your computer? if so, please fill me in! the only way i’ve figured out how to do it is to just take a screenshot and do it that way. which works, of course, but still…

ok im tired. i was up way too late last night, so im going to go take a nap. ^^

my house is a warzone. wear a helmet.

i think i need to watch who i go totally fanboy over (cough cough flo cale cough cough), since they apparently might be reading my blog. haha. ::blushes:: (p.s. you need to do one too!)

so yesterday, i finally went bulldozer on the house. i knocked out like the entire bedroom and started building my own idea. i really like how its going so far. its got quite a ways to go, but its definitely looking pretty sweet! i dont think my house will ever be a construction-free zone. haha. maybe thats why i wanna be a architect when i grow up. ^^ i got go hang out with rai yesterday!! he came over to my house to see it, and was really happy with what ive done so far. that made me happy. at one point we were just cuddling and talking, but i was building at the same time, and he was like OMG youre building while we’re cuddling? we’re just like dusan! no wonder why you 2 are brothers!! haha. that made me laugh so hard. i had to share that with him. hehe. we’re gonna go exploring later today, i cant wait!!

robin also came over to my place to see it. i love robin. he’s such a sweet boy. and he’s a great dancer too! hehe. after the tour of the place we went to vortex and hung out for a bit while austin spun. he really is such a great dj. speaking of which, i think im finally gonna put in an app to DJ at vortex this weekend. wish me luck! im nervous!

i love all my friends here. they make me feel all warm and squichy inside

ive decided that as of this weekend im no longer the new kid. hehe. ive come a long way in the last month!! we should throw a “wow im old!” party. lol.

so um hi! i didnt forget about this (even though i am a bit a.d.d. at times!), its just been pretty busy these last few days. dusan gave me a base house to play with and ive been hard at work the past few days trying to make it work. ive already done a lot to it and i think im going to need to just tear down like entire parts of the house to make it work soon. haha. its gonna be a work in progress for quite a while i think! lol. i can live with that though.. ^^ aside from that, i havent really done much. hung out a bit in vortex and aspen, went shopping a bit, hanging out with friends…. things have been pretty good all around. im finally getting into a bit of a groove around here, which has been really nice. plus im actually having real conversations with some of my new friends, which makes me really happy that its not all just like “hi!” in the club. but like, im going to their houses, being invited on trips/excusions/what not, and the like. and ive found some people who moved here very recently, so maybe i wont be the new kid much longer! heh.

oh! so yesterday i was at vortex and flo and tsu showed up and gave everyone balloons!! haha. it was so random. i love those two. i hope one day im like, half as cool as them. hehe.

:-D

so yesterday i wrote about how i hung out with rai for most of the day, and i got to talk to his boyfriend dusan for quite a while, and we had a really great conversation. well i’ve got exciting news–dusan’s adopted me as my big brother! we had a really great chat today and i think we really understand one another, plus he’s a heck of a lot of fun to be around. i don’t know what i did to deserve this, he’s being so sweet! it made me feel so good, actually being welcomed into someone’s family. its nice to also know that sometime soon i’ll actually have a place to call home, since he offered to let me live on his island!! it makes me feel all warm and squishy inside. dusan was even there to help me out after i got myself in a biiiiit of trouble as well. ^^ dont worry, i won’t make that mistake again! so i suppose having someone like him will really help me out as well. im so excited, i can barely contain myself.

here’s a pic i took of me and dusan hanging out and having a chat.

he’s so awesome! ^^

thats all for now, gotta head over to vortex! gem’s spinning!

exploring

oh man, yesterday was such a great day! i met this really cool girl, carina (i know what you’re saying… girl….ewww!) hey, girls can be fun too! haha. and she was a great dancer as well! we danced at aspen (where else!). shortly after that, i ended up going over to rai’s island and he gave me a tour of it. wow! it looks pretty awesome! he’s really done a lot with it! and his house is awesome… i was very impressed! rai even showed me how to do some very basic building things. i hope that i can start building soon! then we ended up meeting up with fl0 cale, and we went exploring to a whole bunch of different places. we went to some space station where we got to look back at earth and dance and have a few drinks, then we went to this place that had all these mockups of famous ships. well, some. rai said there used to be a lot more, but apparantly the owner is getting rid of them. thats sad. we also went over to free, the island that rai and dusan (his boyfriend) have their bigger (and more private house) on. all i can say is…. WOW! what an awesome place!! everything i see here makes me just so impressed! i also got to meet rai’s boyfriend, dusan, who was such a cool person! we had a really great and in-depth chat (see, i do have some substance to me, its not just all OMGYAY!). he had to run, so we bid him farewell, and rai showed me a few more places on the island to check out. we ended the tour back at his house on pride island, where this picture was taken.

he’s so sweet! ^^

later in the day i got invited over to kikai island by robin, another amazingly wonderful person, who gave me a personal guided tour of the island in a blimp!! it was so amazing seeing everyone’s houses. and when we got to robin and har’s house, i was just in awe. first, it was so BIG! and it was so classy and well done! for kids they really know how to design a house! i was so very impressed, i was pretty much speechless for most of the time. it was my first time going to the island, and i sure hope it’s not my last. maybe one day in the future ill be able to have my own house there…. maybe even with a special someone one day. we’ll see.

i slept really good last night after all that exploring and sightseeing. i hope i get to have another awesome day like that sometime soon…. but man are my legs tired! next time im using a hovercraft. OH THAT REMINDS ME! rai gave me a hovercraft! he really is so amazingly sweet. but yeah, thats all for now…. byeee!

fun night @ aspen

so the other day i met this awesome (and cute!) boy named flo (flo bikcin, not the other flo who runs the beach club). he was really cool and fun to talk to! we talked for a while at aspen and then i had to run off becuase i was getting tired. well yesterday we ended up hanging out again for quite a while. we danced at aspen for quite a while (hes a good dancer!). then afterwards we went upstairs and talked for a while and really got to know one another. he’s a really cool boy. does that count as a date? hehe. i dont know, but it was a lot of fun either way!

in other news, i watched high school musical 2 the other night as well. zac efron’s even cuter in this movie. hehe. so good. and the music is so much fun too! god i sound like such a girl. oh well! it was also nice to see ryan (the obviously gay one!) actually become “one of the gang” as well. it made me happy.

oh, here’s a picture of me and flo from the other night. isnt he cute?

thats all for now, gonna go see whats going on today.

i made a shirt!

i made a shirt for myself last night!!!  its from my favorite tv show (well, one of them), jericho.  its really simple, its just the jericho logo on a black shirt.  the front looks awesome, the back is all messed up.  probably because im too thin and my shoulder bones make the shirt all screwy.  oh well, not bad for a first try! ill post a pic of it later.

high school musical’s on tonight! i cant wait to watch it! i have a liiiiiittle crush on zac efron… but shh dont tell ne one.  hes SO cute! hehe.  i wish i could sing like him.